Jaring

I did not know that Jaring still exist. Jaring - the Internet provider pioneer in Malaysia is barely alive and is expected to shut down its operation sooner.

But still, how does it ever survive until now when nobody in Putrajaya cares about it?

Wow, so tough this Jaring.

[Diari] Fly My Daughter, fly!

Leaving your child is never an easy task. It is so painful everytime I have to say goodbye to her. Yes, everytime. So yesterday, we went for a short gate away just to taste some peace of minds. And we had fun. Temporary fun. But still, better than nothing. I would like to share about it but for some reasons, let me just keep it to myself.

Husband bought me a few things which are not expensive but surely will help me a lot in the future. One of them is a handbag. Actually he just bought me a bag about three weeks ago. However, after a week, I became completely insecure with myself as the bag exposed some of my body parts and make it become so obvious. So I used another bag. Unfortunately, the bag has worn out. So he bought another one that is big enough for my laptop to fit in. Thank you husband.

Just now while I was cleaning up my bag, I found a passport-sized photo of Alisha. It was taken about 4 days ago when we were at the Immigration Department to make international passport for her. I forgot it requires a photo so we rushed to a level below to make the photos. For infants/toddlers, the fee is only RM100 for 5 years duration. And the necessary documents are only photocopy of guardian's IC (mom or dad) and child's birth certificate. Alhamdulillah Alisha is now eligible to fly to anywhere in the world. Hehe. 

[Diari] Missing You

Fly by Ludovico Enaudi is the perfect soundtrack for my video. I am so looking forward to do this editing. It is not my specialties but that does not matter. As long as we are willing to learn and try.

I watched Intouchables just now for maybe the 5th time? One of my favourite movie of all time. Couldn't forget those beautiful and deep scenes. I feel like I am a part of it. And I feel like Zumie is here with me. Only Allah knows how I miss her. How I love her so much. How I am so grateful to know a person like her. Whenever she is, I pray for her success in dunya and akhirah.

So, today was quite kelam kabut lah. Forgot to bring the charger (again) and barely finished my report. But hey, I got full mark for Quiz Dr.Dedicated-But-Clumsy1q-Lee okay. Yippee. No I didnt cheat. Cheat in exams is like you cheat on your husband. Can ah that comparison? :)

Okay, now Maslan is everywhere. He is trending on every social media I know. So much trolling. Why do people like to troll other people? Does trolling satisfy your lust? Ego? I disagree with him too but to make fun of his physical is so immature and rude. Dont forget he is a muslim too like us. If we dont agree then counter attack in more educational and intelligent ways. Why wasting time edit irrelevant posters?

Okay last but not least before I end this post, I am currently listening to Nsync This I Promise You. So nostalgic. This song was quite famous during my time in Besut. Miss my old friends already. I remember when I was in Form 1, I only went back to my hometown thrice that year. My parent sent me sooo far away when I was only 13 yo. And they couldnt afford much. So MRSM is the best choice as MARA would support me almost 100%. For the first few weeks, I didnt understand any single word that came out from those people. So much effort I had to put in order to adapt and survive and I survived. I wonder what does my dorm looks like now...

[Diari] Adik

Hidayah, kalau awak baca ini, akak nak awak tahu, akak sayang awak.
Ada rezeki nanti akak beli buku Life Without Limits tu.
Seronok kan dapat bertukar-tukar pendapat mengenai buku?
Sayang awak.
Akak lupa nak beritahu satu buku best.
Tajuknya A. Samad Ismail.
Pasal biografi journalist.
Awak kan suka non-fiksyen.
Buku ni insyaAllah akan memotivasikan awak.
Seperti mana yang ia lakukan pada akak (atas izin Allah taa'la).

Kita baru kenal kan.
Tapi akak rasa sayang sangat kat awak.
Sebab awak ikhlas bersahabat dengan akak rasanya.

Kalau boleh awak janganlah berhenti.
Jika awak kata akak memberi inspirasi pada awak.
Sebenarnya awaklah inspirasi akak.
Yang biarpun seteruk mana dugaan kita, Allah taa'la akan sentiasa sediakan jalan keluar.

[Diari] Hugh Jackman

Rindu gila sama Alisha. 

Apa itu orang kata? Rindu separuh mati? 

Lebih kuranglah.

Ya Allah, rindunya.

Tapi tolonglah jangan sampai kerinduan ini buat saya hampir separuh gila seperti dahulu.

Ya, tiada siapa tahu.

Dan tak perlu tahu.

Sebab saya benci simpati.

Rasanya semua orang pun tidak sukakannya.

Punca kerinduan yang tiba-tiba menjelma mungkin daripada lagu Miracles of December.

Saya tak suka hiburan negara Korea.

Kecuali lagu ini dan beberapa lagu/drama lain.

Bukan best mana.

Cuma pernah sekali saya jadikannya lagu iringan bersama video Alisha.

Jadi bila ia diputarkan, serta-merta ingatan terbang kepada Alisha.

Sudah makankah? Ada orang marahkah? Ada orang ajar bukan-bukan? Kena tengkingkah? Ada orang bermain dengannyakah?

Soalan tipikal kan.

Semoga Allah taa'la sentiasa menjaganya.

Ya Allah, sedih gila.

Camana nak tahan air mata ni.

Benci betul bila ter-menangis di hadapan orang.

Sebab itu saya jarang sangat bercerita kisah Alisha pada sesiapa.

Bimbang air mata tumpah.

Manusia kan.

Perempuan lagi.

Sensitif tu biasalah.

Untuk elakkannya, lebih baik tak payah buka topik tertentu.

Oh ya, hari ini buku Imam telah saya pulangkan dan tukar dengan buku baru.

Sherlock Holmes oleh Sir Arthur Conan Doyle.

Bila baca terbayang-bayang Robert Downey Jr. dan gayanya.

Oh saya taklah minat beliau sangat.

Rasaya saya memang jarang minat mana-mana artis.

Kecuali yang tertentu.

Seperti Hugh Jackman, Hugh Jackman, Hugh Jackman dan Hugh Jackman.

Hahaha.

Oh mata, sila jaga pandanganmu.

Ya Allah, stresskah saya?

Asyik teringat Hugh Jackman je. 

Tolong...

Semalam sebelum pulang Emak ada mengajar saya membaca sebaris doa penerang hati. 

Kalau tak silap surah al-Anbiya ayat 79.

Lupa.

Nanti kena semak semula.

Baca selepas solat.

Terima kasih Emak.

InsyaAllah Nome amalkan.

Rindu Emak. Rindu Ayah juga.

Pelik rasanya.

Sebelum berpisah semalam Ayah cium pipi.

Camana nak cakap ya?

Saya dan ayah tak pernah sebulu.

Kecuali beberapa bulan kebelakangan ini.

Macam dah sejuk.

Sayalah yang sejuknya.

Sebelum ni panas menggelegak.

Darah muda kan.

Harap-haraplah ia bukan petanda buruk.

Semoga saya sempat berbakti pada Ayah dan Emak.

Tak apalah tak kaya, asalkan Emak dan Ayah dapat rasa hasil daripada titik peluh saya.

[Diari] Asoka

Entah kenapa sebak terasa di dada tatkala membaca bait-bait indah sasterawan negara, allahyarham Abdullah Hussain. Ketika meneliti (segan rasanya sedang cuma membaca sekilas sahaja) tulisannya, terasa teramatlah rugi kerana baru hendak mengenal beliau setelah 92 hari pemergiannya. Bukunya belum saya tamatkan, sedikit sukar menyesuaikan masa yang suntuk dengan mood. Tugasan di atas meja asyik menjerit meminta perhatian. Semoga Allah taa'la mengurniakan saya kelapangan masa dan akal fikiran untuk menghabiskan antara naskah teragung sasterawan negara Abdullah Hussain  iaitu IMAM sebelum hari Selasa tiba. Kenapa Selasa? Sebab ada test untuk subjek kendalian pensyarah kegemaran kita. Haaaa itu dia, sejak bila Najiha yang sedingin ais kutub utara ni ada perasaan kasih-sayang? Entahlah kan, tiba-tiba saja hehe. Semoga Allah taa'la menerangkan hati dan minda saya. Aamiiiin.

Oh ya, malam semalam Astro Tayangan Hebat menayangkan filem Asoka. Asoka beb Asoka. Walaupun menyimpang agak jauh dari Sejarah, ia tetap best kerana ia pasal Asoka. ;)